As much as it pains me to say this, and it does, I feel like Bella in New Moon right now. First of all, yes I am comparing my life to fairy tale about vampires. Second, I hated New Moon.

If you've ever read it, which some of you may have (all my avid fans), after Edward leaves the book is broken down into months, and after the wolves "save" Bella from the woods, months and months go by with nothing written. It just says the month, then a blank page, then the next month for a while.

That's how I feel, although not quite that bad. I feel like days and days go by and I'm in this weird fog. I can honestly say I don't feel like myself. I mean I'm doing a lot more than Bella, I have school and am making new friends, and live here obvi. But there is still that feeling. I do things, but I live life in this foggy numb state.

I know it will get better, it did for Bella and she and Edward were fated and shit. So it will get better for me.

Oh well, maybe I can appreciate New Moon more...

No, I still hate Jacob.