I feel like dying. I don't even care how emo I sound right now.

This is the first time in my life I have ever been jealous of married people, at least they get to be around the people they love (if they happen to love their spouse) or connected by law

I have decided the only thing that can pull me out of the dark rut that will be my life after Saturday and a facebook relationship change is having a famous person see me in LA and want me so bad he buys me stuff.

Whether I return his advances is no matter. I honestly doubt I can be swayed by anything, but a new car would be cool. Oh and having law schools that rejected me see that I am cool and not unattractive would be sweet.

Not that I have any readers, but I feel the need to blog. I think I'm weening myself into a life of blogging, although after I get to LA I have no idea how long it will take to get internet. There is no free internet in LA. Ah, the big city.

I got my 3rd tattoo yesterday, it was fine, it hurt like a bitch and I sweat so much that when the guy asked me to turn over for another angle I pulled the plastic with me, but other then that-fine.

It was at least 5x more painful then my others, but those were on the fattest part of my body as opposed to right on top of my bones. Apparently on the ribs is the most difficult and painful place to get a tat.

I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself.

Minus the stinging and the fact that I can't wear any sort of bra for 2 weeks. I know since I have tiny boobs, this seems like an ok problem, but bras help with the illusion of breasts.

The price of art.

I'll put a pic up later, I am currently in the Il Spaz parking lot, so a picture session is out of the question. I just needed to get out of my apartment and I knew I would catch both Elmer and Karianne on their way out of work.

I packed a lot today. My room is a mess, but I think tomo will help, I need to run a bunch of errands to get rid of stuff.

Moving is such a fucking pain. ugh.

So ever since I have come into contact with my new MacBook I have been on it all the time. I'm afraid I am going to wear it out before I even get to law school, which can't happen since I have to borrow over $57,000 for ONE YEAR and I will soon be the poorest person I know (if I don't count all the loan money which will just be begging me to not spend it not on rent and food, but on clothes and alcohol and clubs and everything in LA)

Will power.

I really want to get a new phone, but I'm spending more money than I thought I would be tomorrow on my 3rd tat. Priorities eh?

Although I might have some extra loan money for a phone....hmmm

My parents have now decided to come get me on Weds instead of Thurs. At first they ignored my horrified and angry looks, but then caved and suggested I come stay with Elmer on Friday night and come back on Sat to get ready to leave on Sun. It's so annoying they know I stay with him, but won't let us sleep together when we visit. Anyway, so Weds and Thurs I need to:

1. estimate how much stuff I can put in my car (including my mom's shit)

2. pack travel clothes

3. repack clothes that will fit

4. find other things I want to take and make them fit in my car

5. clean my car

6. clean out under my childhood bed-at my mom's request/demand.

7. prepare my self for the end of my most healthy and best relationship with someone I still love and leave my bffs.

that shouldn't take long.

So clearly I have an immense amount of trouble writing about GG. The last part of this season may not have been the best, but the finale was amazing. If you haven't seen it, you must- If you watch GG. If you do not watch Gossip Girl, you should start. Now.

Since I fail at writing about GG, and it's off the air for a while, maybe I will use this blog to write about a big city. As the name might suggest.

I leave to move down there in...about 12 days. I can barely believe it.

Side note: I am having odd stomach cramps, do you think my laptop is giving me cancer?

Anyway, it might be fun chronicling a new life, finding an apartment, getting through law school, finding new people to drink with, etc. Or I'll just forget to like the Gossip Girl discussions.

hm

I know I haven't written in forever.
I am aware this is annoying to all my loyal followers...3 people?
But I am overwhelmingly, don't have time to eat right (although I never did anyway), sleep normal hours, busy.
If I don't graduate May 9th, it is because I have died from stress.
If I don't die, I promise to give this blog the attention it deserves.
Also catch everyone up on GG, because I love, love, love it.

If there is one thing I don't know very well and should it is my big city.

I am flying into LA in a few hours, to do mature, adult things (NO!, not a porn)
and I have to drive myself to these important places.
I have spent 2 summers there and regularly get lost, cute huh?

If I paid Verizon an extra $30 a month I could get GPS right on my phone.
I don't know about having GPS either.

Yeah airport security!
I do know I need to take the lighters out of my purse.
That is my springbreak tip to everyone-remove lighters before going under the magnetic arch or they will throw them away!!! and reprimand you.